It's been an extraordinarily busy time for me lately, but good busy as compared to last year's busy. I HATED having the kids in public school, so the journey back to homeschooling has been very comforting. We are doing more real life learning and less curriculum driven learning. It is exciting and I'm amazed all the time with the interests and talents of each and every one of them.
The housework suffers, but I tell myself that someday they will all be gone and the house will be clean. It has occurred to me lately how time flies and how my life now doesn't look anything like what I thought it would look like a few years ago. (I figured we'd all be raptured by now;).
And I work...A LOT. What was supposed to be a very very part time job to help makes ends meet is now a pretty much full time gig. I've picked up a few bar-tending shifts as well and am finding that to be challenging, but fun. The money is nice and it is nice to not have to scrape and scrimp all the time. Although I do wonder if the hours at work vs. home are a bit out of whack. I am so grateful that the kids aren't in school, so I can spend my days with them. Some days it kind of feels like I'm really living the dream (sarcastically) and other days it feels like I'm living the dream honestly and I'm the luckiest woman alive. I don't get to see my husband much, though, and that is a problem. I hope for some more balance in that area.
Thinking back on the faith, I find that my heart-brokenness about it all seems to be settling down. Life does go on. I'm not quite sure what to do with that, but it is something.
The housework suffers, but I tell myself that someday they will all be gone and the house will be clean. It has occurred to me lately how time flies and how my life now doesn't look anything like what I thought it would look like a few years ago. (I figured we'd all be raptured by now;).
And I work...A LOT. What was supposed to be a very very part time job to help makes ends meet is now a pretty much full time gig. I've picked up a few bar-tending shifts as well and am finding that to be challenging, but fun. The money is nice and it is nice to not have to scrape and scrimp all the time. Although I do wonder if the hours at work vs. home are a bit out of whack. I am so grateful that the kids aren't in school, so I can spend my days with them. Some days it kind of feels like I'm really living the dream (sarcastically) and other days it feels like I'm living the dream honestly and I'm the luckiest woman alive. I don't get to see my husband much, though, and that is a problem. I hope for some more balance in that area.
Thinking back on the faith, I find that my heart-brokenness about it all seems to be settling down. Life does go on. I'm not quite sure what to do with that, but it is something.
